I don’t really know where to start, even now as I’m writhing this my head just gets emptier. It would seem I don’t have anything to say anymore, theres just this intense numbness and I really don’t know why. Like when I’m on the phone, I can’t hardly talk and I doesn’t help when they have nothing to say to me... There’s so many thing’s I know I should feel so strongly towards and I don’t feel anything at all. I haven’t been myself lately.

I miss Kaity, I miss Chris. Their my two best friends in the whole world and I haven’t even been able to hardly see them. And on our Friday we keep ending up at the mall or Lola’s! I don’t take the day off to go to the freakin mall. I mean geez, I only want to see them not every other mall-rat with nothing better to. My family wants to see. If we’re going to just do that all the time, I might as well stay home.... Last Friday it’s was just the three of us, then. Boom! Same thing.
I was happy then after that I just seem to lose all my thoughts. I also used to talk to them all the time... And now? Psh, I’ve barely been able to talk to Kat and I haven’t even talked to Chris....

I don’t know... Maybe it’s just I’ve been so tired. I’m losing touch with my reality. I need to get some soiled sleep, I need to seriously talk to someone, I need to see Kaity! Ahhh! It’s driving my insane.

With love,
~Leona